update

Well heres an update, i guess i havent really written anything for a while. Its just that i dont know what to write. It feels like im failing at life at th moment.
Im finally down to 68kg. I dont remember being 68kg for th longest time. Possibly since i was 14. You would think id be happy hey, but no, a few random comments from 'friends' about 'god, youve lost heaps of weight, are you sick or something?' has really boosted my confidence (not) and now im starting to wonder WHY IS IT That its so easy to lose weight now when it never has been.
Mick mowed th lawns on th weekend. Its amazing how huge th backyard looks now. And neat. I just went outside n took a photo, it looks like its going to be an awesome day today. And while i think of it, guess what else?! Th roses mick got me for my birthday? Well i have managed to get some cuttings growing.
No roots yet tho.
Suggestions definately welcome..
I have to go now n take th boy to school. Ciao!

crazy thoughts...

I wonder what a crumpet would taste like if you toasted it under th grill n put a few caramello rounds on top at th last minute n let them melt into th holes on top of th crumpet.
Interesting.
I wasnt quite game enough before so i had strawberry jam.
I did think about it fucken hard though.

I miss walking athena along th back road with all th big gum trees.
I miss having people i knew living nearby n dropping in for coffee.
I miss having somebody who appreciate my cooking n tells me so.
I miss my garden.
I miss not worrying about money.
I miss th spur of th moment decisions to take th dog for a drive to somewhere we hadnt yet seen.
I miss planning our next streaky trip.
I miss size 12 shoes.
I miss knowing exactly what is where, how did it get there n how long it will stay.
I love walking athena to th beach along th river path.
I like th peace n quiet.
I love that ive gotten fitter n lost weight since moving here.
I love how we have been doing so much gardening lately, making th back yard a nicer less empty thing to look at, winters perfect for planting!
I like that my car hasnt cost me any money lately (touch wood)
I love th bikerides we have been doing. Th world looks different when youre not in a car.
I like holding onto th thin hope that i will make it to streaky at christmas time.
I love my new sneakers.
Im trying to think that a new life is a new start n that i should make th best of it. Knowing how things are isnt always within your reach. Sometimes not knowing is just how it is.

a tree, another tree and more trees. How interesting.

I took these yesterday on my ride along th river.
Do you know how many freaking condom wrappers and condoms i see on th ground along that river track?! Its disgusting.
People should learn to pick up after themselves. Gross.