Saturday, February 28, 2009

pancakes are round and yummy. Blame my sister for th title. Or me for asking 'give me a random sentence'

it is, hmm. Late? I am presently half way between drunk n no dozed (blame my sister for that one also) and since i was checking my email i thought id do a quick report.
I have found th house of my dreams, it is a little out of my price range but my m8 has decided to move in n share half th rent so it might work? (wish me luck with that lol this guys used to living with family n friends n not paying fuck all bills. Excuse my french) th house is amazing, seriously. I mean it sure isnt a mansion but it has a feeling about it, y'know? :) and i think i have said this be4 but, life is meant 2 be lived right? I am so damn scared, so much is changing, and all at once, but all i can do is try. And if it fails, i will know i tried.
I feel lately all im doing is whinging 2 anyone who will listen but hey, hopefully soon i will have nothing 2 whinge about. This said, carpe diem people, til next post :)

Monday, February 23, 2009

I see you in back of my mind
my body sighs n i start to fall
you leave me further way behind
and i fight it not at all.
You made me cry with wicked lies
you broke my trust n went away
history repeats yet still i try
but this time will you stay?

Thursday, February 19, 2009

at th edge of eternity
I stand
and realise its all a lie
There is no end
like there was no beginning
Just a ribbon
flowing endlessly
th end so far away
as though it never was
And life goes on
irrelevant to one
because nothing stands alone
Just a small unimportance
existing inside everything

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

long time, no post..

well i havent been here for a little while now, my life has been semi falling apart and i havent felt like writing anything. Or eating anything for that matter. I figure i better either save this blog now or it is destined to become yet more dead space on th internet. So here goes a half assed attempt at a post..
2 weeks ago me and scott decided that we cant go on the way we are and maybe we are better off just as friends. I dont know if this is a temporary thing or if its more permanant. I guess only time will tell. Neither of us can afford to move out, which kinda sucks cos its kinda wierd. Im basically a single parent with a housemate. Ive been staying with my mate th last 2 weekends so we can have our own space but with mikael going to school i have to use th house as a 'base' during th week. Unfortunately my idea of 'if im not here, he will miss me' doesnt seem to be working. But you get that.
Last week one of th torrens weirs opened on its own, th guard heard th siren and did th manual override to shut th gate but it jammed open. So basically th torrens lost its guts to th sea. Would have been awesome to see. Mick took me for a walk sunday night to have a look, we parked near th old gaol and walked along th river to hackney in th park lands. It was a heaps nice walk. We crossed over and did th other side for th way back. God knows how many bicycles we saw in th mud, and chairs?! and shopping trolleys. We saw a moped, it fully looked like someone just paralell parked it on th river bottom at th base of th wall! Wierd. On a more morbid note, we found a backpack with somebodys animal skeleton in it but we missed out on seeing th car. It was in th paper a car had been discovered buried in th mud on th river bottom. Th mud was up to its windows! Im wondering how th hell for starters, nobody noticed it, how it got so far off th bank (what, they set up a ramp or something) and how it got so deep in th mud! By th time we got there theyd removed it so all we got to see was th massive deep gouge mark cutting across th mud. There were many dead carp, which could only be a good thing, and a few shallow puddles with huge carp swimming in circles with their backs out of th water. Th whole river wasnt empty as such, but it certainly had dropped a hell of a lot and th king william st fountain was high and dry, along with th paddleboats and th popeyes. Im having trouble uploading pics using my phone internet or id share.
Monday mick messaged me and asked if i wanted to go carp fishing after he finished work, id never been before and Q was telling me recently that its alot of fun so i thought why not! I figured if i caught anything, put them in th freezer n its crab bait for wallaroo next weekend :) we ended up getting 13. Of course he got 9 of those, but i got th biggest! Today im doing washing and cleaning up around here, since im not here on th weekends th place looks trashed by monday. And i wasnt here last nite either so here it is tuesday n th place is still trashed.
Washing machines calling, bye! :)